34 of #100daychallenge: parenting

This week, my daughter is going to freshman orientation. It's one of those milestones that has me feeling all the moments.

I have to say that I am really enjoying getting to know her. She's a really wonderful person and she has joy for herself and others. She gets full credit for who she is. She has been through some hard times and she deals with me. 

I never feel like I'm a good enough parent, but then I look at her and listen to her and she seems to know who she is and then I realize that I've been getting confused about my role. There are a lot of things she is just going to have to learn on her own or from other people. She will figure out what to do and when to do it when she feels an urgency and responsibility of her own. Truly, she has everything she needs and others and I will be able to help her along the way. Her own adventure is just waiting to unfold and it's not mine to direct.

I've got to be here to provide support and to give her time, space and love to learn her own way through her own challenges and successes. And, most of all to be here for her when she needs a break of any kind, because our culture is still learning the value of breaks and slowing down.

This kid is cool. She has love for herself and because of that, she has love for others. She is fun, smart and open-minded. She is brilliance in light and brilliance in dark. She is grounded, yet high flying and boundless. If she could be the best at anything, my hope would be for her to be the best at being more of who she is always.

I hope high school is as fun and inspiring as possible to help balance out how overwhelming it may feel at times. Sometimes, it is hard to imagine and believe this, but everything we must endure is training for life. The hardest part of training is the mind and emotions or attitude, because they affect how and whether or not we will follow through toward our goals. Training is ongoing practice and sometimes it gets harder to stick with as we become more independent. I hope there's a way to embrace the training and practice that feels rewarding and enjoyable.

It all feels like it's happening so fast, so I just had to pause and take it all in a bit. I feel so lucky to have my daughter. She is in many ways my heart beat and my North Star.

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Brightly,

Laura