119 of #120daysadhana: How to write a book

I am here. Here I am. Today is a new day. I do not feel as accomplished as I did when I completed my first 120 day sadhana, but I feel good in a different way on on day 119 of my second sadhana. Overall this experience has been so uncomfortable in all of its imperfection. It hasn’t really seemed to match up well with the intention I am working toward, but I stuck with it anyway. I’m learning so much even though I’m not sharing it on the page each day. It feels like a private matter or just something I want to welcome and enjoy for myself.

Its a good feeling to care less and trust more in the process and the realms of my future present reality. I’m hearing and experiencing the truth and it is absolutely grand and I know it. I have a lot of actual work to do with and on behalf of myself.

Time is a concept that I know better as a feeling that a construct I must live my life by. It feels full of ever-changing expectation and demand. That thought just made me so tired and irritable that I just want to quit writing now and go to sleep.

Goodnight!

Completely,

Laura