I am here. Here I am. Today is a new day! It was a busy day, but a good day. I have to admit that I like working when it’s busy and there are things to do. I am able to immerse myself in work in a way that I wish I could apply to other areas of my life. On some fronts, I believe it helps spark something in me that makes me feel more energetic about making progress and getting stuff done in other areas. On other fronts, I become completely oblivious to things I ought to be doing for my personal life.

I think it’s fair to say that I become acutely aware of where my all or nothing and somewhat addictive tendencies come into play and how they help and hinder me. Somehow, I manage and alternate thriving, maintaining and completely checking out in waves.

I need to get going to take care of some things, but I love writing and am feeling more open to sharing more of the writing I’m finding in my research. I still think that there is a lot of opportunity for improving and revising, but I’m still working through being more open to that process because a lot of the writing I do is a journey. I keep finding a bit of brilliance here and there, but then I realize that the journey or the process of how that bit of brilliance became illuminated or discovered is just as interesting and seems to add more dimension and meaning in a way that feels connecting.

I probably need a little more distance from myself and the tendency to relive the experience I was having when I wrote the original thoughts. To write is such a worthy challenge and adventure. It is also one of those life things that just works better when I do it and don’t think so much or talk so much about it until the time comes and I am moved to do so.

Completely,

Laura