68 of #120daysadhana: How to write a book

I am here. Here I am. Today is a new day. Today was cool. It’s fun to see people in their element in their work. I want to be like that. I do love my work, but I don’t feel like it’s my first or second nature and there are so many people who are faster and better. It’s not about comparing, but I think I’ve always known that I am really not good at a lot of things and not often the smartest person in the room. I don’t really need to be good at everything or be the smartest person in the room, but I do want to be amongst experienced masters of something and brilliant beings. I like being a part of a team. I want to be the best, but be the best together. Being the best alone may be impressive, but it also seems boring, isolating and like an additional full-time job on top of everything.

I think I feel happy when everyone else is happy.

I’m tired and tomorrow is an important day that I’m not quite prepared for.

Completely,

Laura