19 of #120daysadhana: How to write a book

I am here. Here I am. Today is a new day. It is so humbling to be the way that I am sometimes. I am one of those people who puts their thoughts and feelings out on the internet. I never wanted to be this way, but it feels kind of good. I like writing because I like the way I feel when I write. I feel the best when I am regularly writing, doing energy work, eating well and exercising. I forgot about sleep again. Restful sleep is a blessing and a game changer.

I’ve probably had that realization about writing before, but just a little bit ago I had this strong feeling about how much I love writing because of the way it makes me feel. That’s a multi-diimensional statement. Writing makes me feel, as in it helps me feel my feelings; but I also feel good as a result of writing.

Tonight, my daughter said something interesting to me.

She said, “Wait, why do you always say ‘I feel’ instead of just saying what you are?”

Confused, I said, “What…? I don’t know what you mean.”

She said, “Why do you always say, ‘I feel happy or I feel tired instead of, ‘I’m happy or I’m tired.’”

I explained that I say how I feel because I am not the thing and that feelings are separate of me. I think it’s very cool and interesting that she noticed that and asked me why. She lost interest as I was explaining and she had friends over at the time, but I think it would be interesting to ask her what she thought of my explanation. Kids are cool. They are so tuned-in and brilliant. I wish our world, including me, did a better job of giving our young people time and space to feel their feelings and think about their own thoughts and ways of being.

I’m so tired, I must go to sleep, but I’m glad I’m keeping up on writing and Sobagh Kriya practice everyday.

Completely,

Laura Peppin