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19 of #100daychallenge: thinking

 

I don't always share my thoughts without thinking them through for awhile until I know how I feel about them. That's what is kind of fun about this #100daychallenge. I don't have time to think things through. I just have to see what happens and go with it. Why not?

 

Success does not equal purpose. Feels true...

 

 

I've been thinking about purpose quite a bit. Purpose is almost so simple and straightforward that we cannot believe it and we get confused. Honestly, I think purpose is often not what we want it to be. Or, even if it is what we want it to be, we experience a bit of a crisis when we know our purpose. It means that we have to give up the mystery. It means that we cannot fudge or manipulate alignment. Some of the dreams, possibilities and options we saw for ourselves are major detours to the realms of our purpose. Eventually, we have to choose. We can choose anything. Anything is possible. Possibilities aligned with purpose create constellations. Constellations are not as limited as they may seem from Earth's view.

 

I don't actually really know what that means, but there's something there that I will continue to explore about purpose and some sense that it helps us understand our shape and the directions that are most accessible for expansion.

 

Today, I went to an awesome pull-up workshop led by a friend and former co-worker, Addie Larson. Addie is a yogi and a ninja warrior. I've been so inspired by her instagram posts and seeing what she can do that I had to sign up for the workshop! I have a lot of strength to build before I will be able to do a pull up without the bands, but it was so helpful to get familiar with the muscles and the steps involved.

 

At the workshop, I said that I want to be able to do one pull up by the end of this year. On the inside, I'm thinking that would be nice, right? This means that I need to get real about whether or not I truly am willing to commit to that goal. I have a lot of lat, upper body and core strength to build up to get where I want to be. Even before that, I have a lot of internal strength and beliefs that I need to build up and part of me is not sure that I can add another goal right now. This would be a great goal because the strength I would build in my upper body could alleviate some of the tension I have in my neck and shoulders. Building up my internal strength and squashing the thought that I might not be able to do it would open up new realms of opportunity and confidence for me. I'm going to keep considering this and I'll know when it has become a real goal that I am working toward. I may regret mentioning this, but as I was making soup this evening, I had an ambitious thought of getting to 40 by March...

 

I don't think life is about being happy. I think it's about the things that lead us or open us to the feeling of happy. I believe that Learning is about equal to Happy for me.

 

 

Thoughts I'm thinking...

 

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Brightly,

Laura