Today was a pretty excellent day. I went to a talk at Lake Harriet Spiritual Community with a friend who had never been. I used to attend the Sunday service more often, but haven’t been going consistently for awhile, so it was nice to be in that space and community again. I enjoyed today’s talk, which tied into “The Power of Community” theme for November. I liked what the speaker said about her experience in preparing for today’s talk and how she had struggled with asking for help. When she asked for help it was a blessing to those whom she had called upon, because it feels good to be able to help someone and to be recognized as someone who can help. It’s really a win win.

I was also able to meet up with another friend for our weekly tune-in. We have been doing this for almost three months now and it’s been an helpful and fun way to reflect on the week and plan for the next. It’s also really cool and rare to have someone close in my life who is able to commit to meeting regularly, so I feel really grateful. I have a steady connection with all of my closest friends, but we don’t always get to see each other in-person. We are always just happy to see each other and do what we can to make the most of our time when we can. I truly have the best, most lovable friends, who truly love me, see my good and lift me up. I hope they feel I love them and want to lift them up, too.

My writing is a reflection of my day. It has been one of those days where I’ve been kind of everywhere and nowhere. Just floating around detached from the ambitions that I had in my mind for the day. Instead of working on the things I had in mind when I had solo time today, I ended up just doing whatever I wanted and the best part was that I mostly went along with it without guilt or worry. I didn’t get much of anything done that was on my list for today, but I did make some much needed progress on an organization project. It is embarrassing to admit that sometimes it takes me weeks to complete what should be a simple set of tasks.

Everything was feeling stale, so several weeks ago, I cleared off my shelves and put stuff in boxes so I could go through it before putting things away again. I got stuck. I couldn’t figure out what to do with the stuff. I was tempted to just get rid of it all, but I actually needed and wanted some of it. I tried to make progress a few times and it just wasn’t happening, so I just ignored and avoided it for awhile, but it was causing me some mid-level irritation and shame all along. I’ve been hoping this day would come. A day that I would be able to take care of everything effortlessly.

It’s so funny how it happens...I got a burst of energy, turned on some music and started moving things around until spaces were cleared, items discarded, recycled and placed on shelves. I still have some filing to do, but that’s for another day and that will be easy.

I’ve got to remember that it’s best to float through each day, rather than charge through it! It’s that battle of me vs me. I’m always trying so hard to be better, faster and more accomplished, but I can do all that without such a need for speed and immediacy. I always get everything done and like it better when I am able to enjoy the process.

I’m hoping to be able to do something fun with my daughter this week. She is always very busy with her friends and I’m happy about that, but I feel time moving quickly and want to hang with her before she’s off to college in a few years!!! Crazy.

I looked at her newborn baby photos tonight and was awestruck about her whole existence from birth to now and me being her mom all throughout. It’s been a fun and beautiful adventure so far. Feels like being alive :-)

Looking forward to a good week — it’s probably the last week sans holiday influence! Although, I am ready for Mariah Carey’s “All I want for Christmas,” Love Actually and Bridget Jones.

In the meantime, I will be watching every episode of Comedians in Cars Getting Coffee and going to see Judd Apatow this week.

Thank you for following @blueprintwellness.life to see my #writing #alltheloveandnoexcuses #120daysadhana unfold.

Brightly,
Laura Peppin