This is an intervention between me and my to do list. To do list and I fundamentally disagree about the partnership. I feel a little like To Do list really hasn’t evolved or been able to support me in the ways I need. We were fine together for a long time, but I feel like we’re in different places and I see To Do list so differently than I used to.

When we first became acquaintances, I was so excited and I enjoyed our time together. It felt like we were a team and we had an understanding. As of late, it just feels like To Do list has become “As If” list, or perhaps, I’m treating To Do list As If I’ve lost all respect and consideration.

It feels disappointing and frustrating, but there is no one to blame. Sometimes, it’s just time for something different. We stayed together for as long as we could and learned a lot from the experience, but it’s time for each of us to move on.

In general, I think there is always between one and three main things I really need to take care of or make progress on each day in order to feel good. The goals that matter each day are the goals about how I want to feel vs how many boxes I get to check each day. It’s a practice of intuition and devotion to check-in each day and really know what it is that matters most and what feeling or result is the true measurement of satisfaction.

I’m looking forward to playing around with this practice. I forgot that I had been doing this earlier this year when I was learning Tony Robbins’s Time of Your Life program. I think I stopped because I felt like I needed to get back to making to do lists and the checking boxes. I always feel the worst when I’ve become my to do list. This is an opposite mentality of my intentions and actions becoming me.

Thanks to To Do + As If list for everything, I’m sure we’ll still see each other from time-to-time when it makes sense!

Thank you for following @blueprintwellness.life to see my #writing #alltheloveandnoexcuses #120daysadhana unfold.

Brightly,
Laura Peppin