It’s cold out. I know the cold weather is good for my body, but it still feels like a major adjustment. I want to stay inside and live in my sweatpants. It’s nice to be cozy and lowkey, so I do appreciate the cold weather for giving me permission to basically be me.

I have lost some focus and some heart. It feels like I have this thing to do everyday and I want to use this time productively and let it have meaning. Sometimes it’s just like whatever, I want to get this done so I can move on with the rest of my evening.

It still counts though. I often feel as though I’m not getting as much out of the practice or truly honoring it when I don’t feel the connection or the heart in what I’m doing. This is what usually throws me off the path and the practice. I realize now that it doesn’t matter how good it is, it doesn’t really matter what I am feeling at the time that I am writing — the thing that matters is that I’m doing it. It’s a cumulative effect, it’s building a foundation and conditioning myself to stick with it no matter what.

I like it. I love it. I am always glad I showed up and followed through. Who cares? Me. So, I have to do what builds me up and keeps me going. There will be good times and not so good times and brilliance and darkness. It’s all good.

Thank you for following @blueprintwellness.life to see my #writing #alltheloveandnoexcuses #120daysadhana unfold.

Brightly,
Laura Peppin