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91 of #100daychallenge: Top Ten Takeaways #9

Yesterday I said that it was the ten day countdown, but I was wrong…I don’t like to be inaccurate with this sort of thing, but it’s okay. Day 100 will be it’s own thing.

I can only do one thing at A time

What a relief. Honestly, I can actually really only do one part of one thing at a time and sometimes even less than that. I’m very happy with this admission. It is my nature to feel best when I can immerse myself and enjoy the one thing I am doing. It is my nature to find refuge in the real, real truths that are inseparable of me.

For a long time, I have been pressuring myself to do more and I perpetually feel I am never doing enough or that I could have done something or many things better.

Is it better to fail or perform at a low level in multiple areas or is it better to fail and integrate on a real level in one area?

I choose the latter. In my observation, the people I admire the most are really good and committed to one thing. They took the time to get good and to continue to learn that one thing and their whole self through that one thing. Eventually, they enjoyed a variety experiences because others were drawn to their work and their character. They are themselves wholly and humbly.

I am a clear and simple person, when I allow myself to be. I am most comfortable one-on-one. The energy of singularity is my nature and feels peaceful. What’s most important to me is the state of my character at the beginning, middle and end of each day.

Work is different than a job or a career. Work is work. But, my work, now that’s a different thing or perhaps, being. I call it mine, but it does not belong to me, it’s more of an acknowledgement that I am the one who must do the work. It is my one thing always through and through. It comes through me, like a ray of light. I can see back through time that it has always been there, but I felt I needed to double check (for decades), just in case it wasn’t my only option or because I wanted some kind of guarantee before trying it out.

 

Misunderstanding our misunderstanding of free will.

I believe in free will, but I also think that I believe that there is just one thing for each of us.

This is so human to use free will to choose everything else before we are willing to choose the thing that is already a part of us. This dimension really skews the way we understand the messages, but it’s understandable because the frequencies here are constantly being manipulated or artificially generated. What makes more sense when you look at life as a child or an adult with a certain amount of awareness, is to understand that free will is choice or empowerment to be who we are, because that is what is best for us. Instead, we prefer to interpret and imagine that free will has to do with creating choices for ourselves to choose because we can.

This is a really important takeaway for me. It felt like I had to give up so much to use my free will to choose to do my work, but I have come to know the difference. Awareness unfolds sheath-by-sheath and eventually I was able to see the illusion.

Discernment is a necessary tool and skills practice, each and every day. The practice of awareness and discernment helped me know for myself that one thing is related to purpose, and many things are related to confusion and distraction.

One thing also encompasses much more than I realized. One thing is not limiting the way I anticipated it to be. One thing is freeing and creates expansion and connection through the dimensions in ways that allow me to see and understand so much more. One thing allows me to be the universe and let everything come into my awareness rather than seeking it out and trying to put all the pieces together across the vastness in one place that makes sense and feels right.

I can only do one thing at a time. This also means I’m free to want what I have and have what I want.

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Brightly,

Laura