Starting to feel that bittersweetness of an end nearing…

I went to kundalini class this morning and we worked on the 8th body, the pranic body and I was reminded that today is all about 8. Day 88 = Double Infinity for me. Not sure what that means, but can imagine. Actually, the Double Infinity is a term that may be perfect for describing where I spend most of my time. The infinite keeps compounding and multiplying. I get lost in the infinite spaces.

During kundalini class, I often become more aware of how and where I am putting my life force energy and why I feel depleted. I know that I feel depleted because I’m putting a majority of my energy towards things outside of me. I can barely breathe sometimes, because I’ve left my breath go out into the world rather than truly understanding it and using it as life force energy to fuel and support everything I am and do.

At the rate I’ve been going, I could die at any time and am probably already dying on the inside, because I’m not giving myself enough oxygen, water, nutrients or recovery time aka sleep. I feel the tension in my jaw, neck, shoulders, back and hips. My ears do not hear as well as they could due to the muscle strain coming through the jaw.

The idea of life force energy has always been fascinating and resonated with me, but I am now able to see a whole new world each time I experience and reconnect with my pranic body. I was reminded of the importance of staying connected to my breath and allowing it to fill me, rather than trying to control. My pranic body feels like it has the ability to expand infinitely, if I continue to stay connected and work with it.

It feels so important to keep up with spending time breathing, exercising and sleeping for more energy!

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Brightly,

Laura